I don’t know how to love
I don’t know how to love My mother never taught me how to She taught me how to cook How to clean How to obey She taught me respect She said to say ‘beee’ when answering to my name she taught me how to be silent That where men sat,I should not be anywhere near That whatever he said went because he was my ‘lord’ … Continue reading I don’t know how to love
He didn’t want me
He said he didn’t want me When he asked me to split the bills in half 50/50 I heard them call it By the way he sneered every time someone smiled at me He said he didn’t want me When he called me a catholic hypocrite Not gonna lie,that made me chuckle He said he didn’t want me When he missed my birthday And was … Continue reading He didn’t want me
I AM A MURDERER
I killed someone, at least that is what they say, I say, he made me do it, You see, he had sworn to the heavens, To love me deeper than the ocean, And yet all he did was love on me, Then I got a bug, A bug that took from me, A loving that ate away at me Puking my guts out every morning … Continue reading I AM A MURDERER
Finding her
I walked down the dank and cold level four sub county hospital sick with apprehension.I occasionally glanced through the alternating doorways where casualties lay. My heart beat ferociously in my chest and my breathing was harsh and too loud. I searched through the entrance of the wards, hoping to see her. “Anne!” I heard my name.I turned and there she was at the end of … Continue reading Finding her
Do you ever?
Have you ever been in pain. A pain so intense and deep within that no drug or medication can take away? and yet you drown yourself in all the herbs hoping one day it will heal your soul. Do you sometimes sit in a group of friends feeling so alone and forlorn? Have you ever had that heavy burden deep in our heart that you … Continue reading Do you ever?
With a bang
The wind was blowing on my face hard through the open car window as I accelerated down the rough tarmacked road. Cool breeze stung my swollen eyes while unshed tears temporarily blinded me. I blinked them back and pressed my foot hard on the accelerator. I was tired, I had been driving since the wee hours of the morning. The tiny digital clock on the … Continue reading With a bang
SKELETONS
Skeletons in the closet, In my closet, Such a huge pile, Mountains and mountains of them, They were stained, decayed with stale blood, Moldy and green, Even moths couldn’t feed from them, Sometimes they would turn into ghosts, And the monsters under my bed, They would haunt me, Re-open my wounds, And lick at the purulent, mixture of pus,blood and tears, Reminding me that no … Continue reading SKELETONS
Confession Box
Tonight just like every other Friday night she threw the dark scarf over her head and walked out her candle in hand.The same cream colored Easter candle that she carried every one of these quiet nights.She was humming to herself,a sad catholic song.One of those they sang during the way of the cross.To any other person it seemed like a light was floating midair for … Continue reading Confession Box
Dance Of the Night
Keep on Love,you are doing great.Keep twisting that cold blade through this wound in my heart.Eventually you will do away with the me I had worked so hard to create.I need you to plunge that knife deeper.I want to feel the coldness of that blade fill this organ in my chest.Do not worry about the blood on its handle or on your hands,my tears will … Continue reading Dance Of the Night
Did time pass by?
Have you seen the time of late? How did the hours run by so fast? How did my heart get so many wrinkles? Why is the left side of my bed unslept on? Did I get so busy worrying I forgot to love? When will she walk in? My daughter,she who looks like me, When will he toddle in,toy in hand? My grandson and call … Continue reading Did time pass by?
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